MMIW Participant Evaluation
July. I should have insisted Darren do his montage; or leave the project. And insisted Victoria allow us to use her photograph; or leave the project. My acts of cowardice cause Darren and Victoria to believe they are special. These acts of cowardice widen into — they have no respect for me. Which in turn produces 22.09.25 Changing the Narrative.
Linda Brogan
They also drown our 14.11.25 evaluation. Victoria doesn’t attend — I have re-traumatised her into an angry black woman. Darren does but can only see — I am the perpetrator and Victoria is my victim. We do not hear any of participant Adam, Ciaron, Elly, or photographer Sol's experiences. Allowing 90 days for our wounds to scab, I will do one-to-one sessions with them to remedy this.
I have learned that enforcing discipline will allow me to continue experimenting with blurring the facilitator/participant boundaries — removing no man’s land — bleeding and bandaging together — caring for each other collectively.
Including HOME producer Clarissa. I am sad when she speaks easily to Sol, but semi-ignores me, while sanctioning my conversation with Tech Kieran to secure the mind-maps are stored properly. I too need to find a replacement for my angry mixed-race woman when I am trying to get a person in power to listen to me. I think this is also about, early on, bravely identifying needs, and boundaries to safeguard them.
I will use this insight to enhance my process.